By a Sydney Falun Dafa practitioner
I realised that my heart is not kind and peaceful at all times, as is required
for the standard of a cultivator within Zhuan Falun. Negative thoughts that
are seeds of discord and non-cooperation frequently come up during the day.
I thought that I have cultivated these away long ago but these are more subtle
and of a finer substance. And many times these come up during quite routine
events. They have always been there but I have been failing to notice them,
until recently they have become obvious when I started to set higher standards
for my self and when I have become more watchful over my thoughts and when I
have started to apply the principles of Truth, Compassion and Forbearance to
every situation.
I feel there is very little time to cultivate all the bad things away in the
process of this Fa-rectification period. But I feel that all I have to do is
to be aware of the negative things within me and make a little effort to change
them. Surprisingly even when trying hard to stay kind at all times and despite
trying to watch my nature at all times, situations still come up to distract
me and lead me to loose control. I felt that situations come up more intensely
as if to test me as if they know that I am trying to improve and they want to
help me cultivate away all the negative things as quickly as possible.
Although at first I was confused whether I was enlightening along a personal
cultivation path, I became clearer upon seeing the results of my cultivation.
Tasks that appeared cumbersome, difficult or simply appeared to have no solution
were sometimes solved within a single thought. And the ideas were not necessarily
just coming out of my mouth. I believe that these are higher lives that are
getting involved in rectifying the universal Law, they are waiting, watching
and wanting to help, yet they can only enter the environment when it is righteous
enough to suit them.
I will continue to help to improve myself, as I see it this is the only genuine
thing that I can do to help in this precious time period. Whether it is while
clarifying the truth, reading the Fa or sending righteous thoughts. Every second
is an opportunity to improve this situation of ours.
Posting date: 8/May/2003
Original article date: 8/May/2003
Category: Cultivation Stories
